Sunday, October 2, 2016

When life happens

I can't believe it's been so long since I wrote. I guess I'm not really surprised but it doesn't feel like it's been this long.   Part of me has felt like I should only write about the happy fluffy stuff. The "he's been on his game and spanking me for every infraction" kind of stuff. But life isn't like that. We've been through a lot in the last few months. Family changes and lots of stress running rampant around here. 
We've had strokes & babies, school started, and we are trying to move. Finding a few minutes to ourselves has been difficult. 

What I can say is through it all, he hasn't let us down. He has been keeping us moving forward, keeping us planted firmly on our journey. 

He gifted me with a surprise trip to visit some friends.  It was an amazing weekend. Long road trip. Surprise guests. I couldn't have asked for more. I can't believe my friends kept the secret. It's always great when we get together and we don't do it often enough. 

I managed to stay out of trouble the whole weekend until the last day. I just woke up in a bad mood. No reason that I can think of & ive even tried to figure it out. NOTHING. Then I wanted him to fix me and make it go away. He didn't and I think that just made me even madder.   I realized eventually that I had no reason for my attitude and apologized.  The apology didn't get me out of trouble but I felt better doing it. It wasn't his responsibility to fix me, it wasn't his fault, it was mine. All mine.  

Since then, we've rolled along. Still learning lessons, still growing. Maybe my next post will be longer. 


  1. I hope you post again soon. I like your writing style. This post made sense to me since I've also struggled with wanting him to fix me and "make me good". For me, it has to come from within. If it's external, I'll chafe and get stubborn. Anyway, glad to see a new update from you.

    1. Thanks for commenting. Sorry it's taken me so long to reply. I hope to be able to check back and post more often now that life isn't as crazy.