After almost two years of DD, I'm not sure how to be anything else. I'm not sure I want to. The place we were before was so sad and lonely. I was angry all the time. I was pushing everyone I loved away from me. I was depressed. I wasn't loveable.
So he's not sure he wants DD anymore. What it feels like is he isn't accepting of me or who I am. I know his decision isn't about me, it's about him and where his mind is. I'm trying to accept that but it's hard. I've told him many times how I feel and why this is important to me and he doesn't respond. He doesn't share what he wants or what he feels. I never know. I'm shut out right now.
I don't want to be his roommate. I don't want to go back to the way it was before. The me before! I'm so confused. So lost.
When did we take this detour? Who set up this road block? How & when do we find the road back to happy and content?